TO HEAL OR NOT TO BE

HEY ALL,
HOPE YOU'RE WELL.

I WENT TO A HEALER YESTERDAY IN SHREWSBURY, MASS.
http://www.rdohealingministry.org/

BELIEVE ME, I'M HAVING A HARD TIME BELIEVING IN ANYTHING THAT HAS TO DO W/ ANY HIGHER POWER. I'M TRYING BUT IT'S A TRYING TIME FOR ME. MY COUSIN SALLY TOOK THE INITIATIVE AND EMAILED ALL THE INFO AND THE WEBSITE. GLAD SHE DID. IT WAS A GREAT 3HRS. AT THE END, YOU GO UP AND HE (FR. DIORIO) ANOINTS THE SICK. I DON'T AGREE THAT I'M SICK-NOR DO I BELIEVE. I'M THINKING THAT THIS IS A MONUMENTAL WAKE-UP CALL. AND THROUGH SHEER WILL-POWER AND SCIENCE------------------- I WILL OVERCOME.
SO I'M WAITING IN LINE TO GET ANOINTED AND WHEN PEOPLE GET BLESSED, THEY'RE ACTUALLY FALLING DOWN. FROM GOD'S FORCES-I'M TOLD. WELL, WHEN I WENT UP, MY SISTER SAID TO THE PRIEST, "IF THE GOD IS GONNA GRACE DREW WITH HIS PRESENCE-SOMEONE OUGHT TO KNOW THAT DREW IS GONNA GO DOWN LIKE A TON OF BRICK'S AND SOMEONE BETTER GET BEHIND HIM". LOW AND BEHOLD, I DIDN'T HAVE THAT POWERFUL OF A FORCE FROM THE MAN (GOD). I GUESS IT'S BECAUSE OF MY QUESTIONING GOD AND MY FAITH IN HIM-RIGHT NOW. OVERALL IT WAS POWERFUL.

I HAVE TO FIND THAT COMMON GROUND BETWEEN SCIENCE AND FAITH. I'M JUST NOT YET THERE W/ THE WHOLE HIGHER POWER BELIEF. I MEAN, I BELIEVE THAT I HAVE A HIGHER POWER-DON'T GET ME WRONG-THERE IS A GOD-BUT WHAT THE HECK DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS (SOME WOULD SAY PLENTY!!!). DO I HAVE MY CHALLENGE (ALS) BECAUSE GOD PICKED ME TO CHAMPION THE CAUSE OR AT LEAST SPREAD THE WORD. BECAUSE IF THAT'S THE REASON-I WISH HE WOULD HAVE ASKED ME PRIOR TO MY DIAGNOSES. I WOULD HAVE POLITELY DECLINED. BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS-SOMETIMES WHEN YOU'RE EXPECTING A FASTBALL LIFE THROWS YOU A CURVE-AND W/ THAT-I WILL CHAMPION THE CAUSE. AND OPEN MOUTH.

I JUST HAVE TO BELIEVE. EVERYONE THAT IS CLOSE TO ME IS SO SURE OF GOD'S PRESENCE AROUND ME-IT'S TRULY REMARKABLE THE FAITH THAT PEOPLE HAVE.

BUT RIGHT NOW SCIENCE IS CALLING-I GO TO COLUMBIA TOMORROW FOR MY CHECK-UP.
SAY A PRAYER
DREW